i just finish watching 斗牛要不要... some love triangle show...
hai... i realize that every time... i will always feel sad for the @ that keeps giving giving and keep giving even though the person they love will never feel that same way back...
and i always wished that the ending will be that the person will realize that the @'s love and love @ back.

when the ending is not like that... i will probably curse and swear or just simply feel sad la.
i will put myself in @'s shoe and say...
my thoughts : wa if its me i will sure heart pain till die... i may kill myself!!... WAIT!! if like that hor they will have the chance to be tgt... :( probably heart pain till numb cannot feel anything... tears cant even flow.... wa SO KE LIAN!!
But like what they say [i have to no idea who is they] Love is not something that is earn by credits.
And its not something that you can force. suck hor... :(
anw...
-during work i feel so MEN! cause i kinna worrying about something... :(
-Wanted to do some project stuff but stop halfway cuz i really feel stress!!rmbed Buggie told me b4 that i can't handle stress.... hai yo~~
-kee sms me suddenly... asking how am i? weird but surprised cause has been busy to contact her. really miss her but has been busy... good that she is studying very hard now... she say SHE VERY GUAI... but its according to her la HRRHRR (: oh well.... jiayou for A levels!! k... kiwi~!
-tml is eng's presentation OH NO~!... i haven sleep YET LO! haha opps...

Random feel : Love is a double edged knife... It can save you from harm as a weapon and also hurt you.

Labels: love, S.H.E

♥ 5:29 AM

I pray for the EMO-NESS to VANISH!
it does feel sucky to feel disappointed!
cheer up zan... but thats all i can do... hai feel so useless :( :(

Anw i worked today
den something happen quite funny
got one customer ordered chicken breast...
den i say izzit turkey breast or chicken breast
den he say chicken
den i say... oh.. jus making sure cuz over here there is 2 kinds of breast
when i turned to do my work... i realised wad i said it wound so wrong.. GASP!

anw... emo-ness suck!

Labels: subway, twig

♥ 12:09 AM

As i walked home... i thought of wad i really wanna do in the future.
i tot of being a composer, graphic designer.
i did a mini mind map in my head...
if i wanna be a composer or graphic designer wad steps must i take to get closer to my goal.
den i thought... of zn and her ambition... she said she wanna help a lot of ppl... and being a gyny allows her to do that.
And i thought to myself... is being a composer or graphic designer benefit anyone?

immediately, i prayed that i let God just takes things in his hands...

(: den i thought whether i should quit my job cause its really affecting my studies but i do need the $... for future use and also for my own allowance... but it always suck when money hard earned and so easily spent!!
hai hai hai...
and once again i may risk gettin debarred from PMP exam....
its like 8am la... den i keep oversleeping... AHHHHHHhh!
sian diao... super sian....

i promise i will study harder but now i tink i dun have the time... abit late ah :(
i did quite alot of reflecting hor today...

okok i shall load up logos that i have been doing so far for Yverlasting yvonne Fan Club...
i did alot of version and each version got better after many tries... notice the evolve...








ok i shall reflect more... i dunno... somehow i dun wan to be a loser in the future and not do anything... :( zn made me think more...

Labels: logo, LXP, twig

♥ 10:38 PM

my xin(heart) is currently very suan.
its like for the first time... i feel my heart actually exists...
i have never been so sad before.
its so injustice and my heart is just broken for the time being...

i tried to distract myself la.
but yey as Jeanette and Esther always say "there is always sunshine after the rain."
but my immediate response to esther was.... why! so far its been rain after rain... why so long!
when my sunshine coming...
hai that is when patience comes in.

ok la... before u all tink wrongly that i got dumped or wad.
i am emo-ing over the guitar.
apparently, the organizers cant compensate me. Its either i have to fixed it myself or liaise with yesmine the guest singer that day who accidentally dropped my guitar...
my friends told me to get $ from her... but i rejected that idea immediately!!
cause i jus hate tokin abt $ really... i HATE tokin abt $...
so when i receive news that i cant get a compensation...
even though no one is to blame... but i really feel somehow i am a victim la.
so my first reaction was ANGER! den it later summer downs to sadness... its really just some uncontrolled mixed feelings that cause my tears to roll down.
and worse~! no one is there to help... at that point of time.
and tokin abt it just cause me to cry more... i cant control la!

i guess it hit me even more... tinking that all this are hitting me by waves~!....
-loss of my wallet which includes my ezlink card ic card which i haven go and make yet.
-my guitar
-my hp
ya da ya da go on and say that its all earthly stuff... stop crying! and move one...
hey! its hard ok... so fark off...

so yey... gng to just save and fix my guitar which causes $100 or below. stage of moving on...
its not abt the $... cause it can be earned.
But its de sentimental value. Once broken even though it fixed... it will still have a scar. a stain. a mark...
that is why i thank God for fixing our sins... without leaving a stain, scar and a mark.
my heart!! its damn pain.

Labels: Guitar, orion

♥ 1:13 AM

Feels weird that i have to write 2008 instead of 2007 whenever i write down dates.
Well First day of school is like weird... i tot its a tues and so planning to go school at 12 but NO!
its a wed... and i have to be school at 8! so waking up at 9am thinking i woke up early.
Rushed down and managed to get my attandance done (:

i got 2 warning letter liao.. opps =x
Got flu from zhengning. Sniffing non stop... but i feel so much better le.
Thanks to not sleeping in front of the fan and drinking lots of water.
Wondering why i got it from her? Cause the other day...
as she sniff out... i purposely sniff in...
haha didn't expect i really got it from her. WAHAHAHA

last nite i was quite emo.... but i duno even knoe why.
HAHA but i used that feel to compose some songs... and to improve the hook of love insurance.
(:

Labels: first day of school, new year, sick

♥ 5:09 PM