Yesterday was fun met up with han qin with ruth and deqi (:
i finally started studying math after so long... (:
so proud of myself wahahaha...
anw last night heart to heart talk session made me realize that i am a very very LOST GAL...
i have so much disbelief, i have problem trusting people, i am so troubled with my future!
-buggie issue has been going on after so many years... that i come to a point that waiting is my last resort... if not i shall just heck this friendship (: which i should have done it few years back... its your last chance dear...
-family issues(financially) whether should i take a part time job... but well part of the reason is because i need to save money to fulfill the goal of going Taiwan before 21... its more of a commitment. If i say i can do it, i will do it!!
-hobby issues, i hoped to get a dip in music composition. To like have a job as a passion more then a profession. i really hoped i can do that. Enjoy my job! (:
so its like... if i have to take up a course... it will cause money! that goes back to my money issue... whether to take a part time job or not...
conclusion: i decided i shall do this... but haha my mind is still like wondering off whether i should do this or that... which most of the time not a very good decision.
PRIORITY IN STUDYING!! finish my poly cert, with that i can work after my grad and with the money i shall go Taiwan first before embarking my journey of doing something i like... (: i really wanna do something i like before i turn OLD..
BUT... i always know God work in a very weird way... if he doesn't allow and wants me to follow his way... i will!! HEY! he is the boss ard here lay...(:
for a moment, i realize that i am fortunate in a way cause i can make my own decision and go after my DREAM, doing something i like (: God bless me!
ONE MORE THING!!
i am darn slow la... mel and jillian are tgt! it took me so long to realize that... hai... oh well i am too busy with production... i missed all the fun.. :(
(: ppl i am happy cause i love composing my feelings... (: muhahah
Labels: goals, issues, nyp
