i just finish watching 斗牛要不要... some love triangle show...
hai... i realize that every time... i will always feel sad for the @ that keeps giving giving and keep giving even though the person they love will never feel that same way back...
and i always wished that the ending will be that the person will realize that the @'s love and love @ back.

when the ending is not like that... i will probably curse and swear or just simply feel sad la.
i will put myself in @'s shoe and say...
my thoughts : wa if its me i will sure heart pain till die... i may kill myself!!... WAIT!! if like that hor they will have the chance to be tgt... :( probably heart pain till numb cannot feel anything... tears cant even flow.... wa SO KE LIAN!!
But like what they say [i have to no idea who is they] Love is not something that is earn by credits.
And its not something that you can force. suck hor... :(
anw...
-during work i feel so MEN! cause i kinna worrying about something... :(
-Wanted to do some project stuff but stop halfway cuz i really feel stress!!rmbed Buggie told me b4 that i can't handle stress.... hai yo~~
-kee sms me suddenly... asking how am i? weird but surprised cause has been busy to contact her. really miss her but has been busy... good that she is studying very hard now... she say SHE VERY GUAI... but its according to her la HRRHRR (: oh well.... jiayou for A levels!! k... kiwi~!
-tml is eng's presentation OH NO~!... i haven sleep YET LO! haha opps...

Random feel : Love is a double edged knife... It can save you from harm as a weapon and also hurt you.

Labels: love, S.H.E

♥ 5:29 AM

I pray for the EMO-NESS to VANISH!
it does feel sucky to feel disappointed!
cheer up zan... but thats all i can do... hai feel so useless :( :(

Anw i worked today
den something happen quite funny
got one customer ordered chicken breast...
den i say izzit turkey breast or chicken breast
den he say chicken
den i say... oh.. jus making sure cuz over here there is 2 kinds of breast
when i turned to do my work... i realised wad i said it wound so wrong.. GASP!

anw... emo-ness suck!

Labels: subway, twig

♥ 12:09 AM

As i walked home... i thought of wad i really wanna do in the future.
i tot of being a composer, graphic designer.
i did a mini mind map in my head...
if i wanna be a composer or graphic designer wad steps must i take to get closer to my goal.
den i thought... of zn and her ambition... she said she wanna help a lot of ppl... and being a gyny allows her to do that.
And i thought to myself... is being a composer or graphic designer benefit anyone?

immediately, i prayed that i let God just takes things in his hands...

(: den i thought whether i should quit my job cause its really affecting my studies but i do need the $... for future use and also for my own allowance... but it always suck when money hard earned and so easily spent!!
hai hai hai...
and once again i may risk gettin debarred from PMP exam....
its like 8am la... den i keep oversleeping... AHHHHHHhh!
sian diao... super sian....

i promise i will study harder but now i tink i dun have the time... abit late ah :(
i did quite alot of reflecting hor today...

okok i shall load up logos that i have been doing so far for Yverlasting yvonne Fan Club...
i did alot of version and each version got better after many tries... notice the evolve...








ok i shall reflect more... i dunno... somehow i dun wan to be a loser in the future and not do anything... :( zn made me think more...

Labels: logo, LXP, twig

♥ 10:38 PM

my xin(heart) is currently very suan.
its like for the first time... i feel my heart actually exists...
i have never been so sad before.
its so injustice and my heart is just broken for the time being...

i tried to distract myself la.
but yey as Jeanette and Esther always say "there is always sunshine after the rain."
but my immediate response to esther was.... why! so far its been rain after rain... why so long!
when my sunshine coming...
hai that is when patience comes in.

ok la... before u all tink wrongly that i got dumped or wad.
i am emo-ing over the guitar.
apparently, the organizers cant compensate me. Its either i have to fixed it myself or liaise with yesmine the guest singer that day who accidentally dropped my guitar...
my friends told me to get $ from her... but i rejected that idea immediately!!
cause i jus hate tokin abt $ really... i HATE tokin abt $...
so when i receive news that i cant get a compensation...
even though no one is to blame... but i really feel somehow i am a victim la.
so my first reaction was ANGER! den it later summer downs to sadness... its really just some uncontrolled mixed feelings that cause my tears to roll down.
and worse~! no one is there to help... at that point of time.
and tokin abt it just cause me to cry more... i cant control la!

i guess it hit me even more... tinking that all this are hitting me by waves~!....
-loss of my wallet which includes my ezlink card ic card which i haven go and make yet.
-my guitar
-my hp
ya da ya da go on and say that its all earthly stuff... stop crying! and move one...
hey! its hard ok... so fark off...

so yey... gng to just save and fix my guitar which causes $100 or below. stage of moving on...
its not abt the $... cause it can be earned.
But its de sentimental value. Once broken even though it fixed... it will still have a scar. a stain. a mark...
that is why i thank God for fixing our sins... without leaving a stain, scar and a mark.
my heart!! its damn pain.

Labels: Guitar, orion

♥ 1:13 AM

Feels weird that i have to write 2008 instead of 2007 whenever i write down dates.
Well First day of school is like weird... i tot its a tues and so planning to go school at 12 but NO!
its a wed... and i have to be school at 8! so waking up at 9am thinking i woke up early.
Rushed down and managed to get my attandance done (:

i got 2 warning letter liao.. opps =x
Got flu from zhengning. Sniffing non stop... but i feel so much better le.
Thanks to not sleeping in front of the fan and drinking lots of water.
Wondering why i got it from her? Cause the other day...
as she sniff out... i purposely sniff in...
haha didn't expect i really got it from her. WAHAHAHA

last nite i was quite emo.... but i duno even knoe why.
HAHA but i used that feel to compose some songs... and to improve the hook of love insurance.
(:

Labels: first day of school, new year, sick

♥ 5:09 PM

Hi everyone pew is here (: happily blogging.
Have been receiving comments that my blog lags ppl's com~! so wad shld i do?
improve my blog? delete past post? or shout... GO BUY A NEW COM!!

anw... (: happy back again!

SAT,29 dec'07
Joe and wei yen's wedding at St Andrew Cathedral.
Grand grand grand....
spectacular hymes... i like all the hymes chosen (:

Yvonne Lim Outing At Seoul Garden
I met the aud, jean and kaevan at the cityhall mrt at 4pm.
And after that we proceed to Seoul garden. (:
After which xin gave me a card to draw and i drew the little gal on the swing HAHA...
credit me k (: the great artiest pew!!In my mind i was actually picturing the gal as this...

but the results was like super weird haha i cant draw la :(

going on... i was like nervous with all the butterflies in my stomach so i took my lappy out to play (: and when Aud came in and say...
"Yvonne is come anytime... she just called me"
my heart nearly dropped but i continue to play my lappy.
So when yvonne really came... at a glance she said hi to everyone and suddenly stop at me and said: "EH aren't you the one that came for my movie premier"
WAAAAAAAAAAA she remembers!!!
oh my tian~~ *angels coming down throw flower,throw flower*
den yada yada she settles down... den we started to get food and everything.

side track abit... seating arrangements of that day is!!
hrrhrr good that i didnt sit across her (: hee... but she was nice to like mingle ard (:
She started talking to jean, Audrey and kite.
Den after which she move left abit to tok to jiamin who is very very quiet!
macham every word spoken i Gold like that.
i heard that Yvonne went to approach her to ask her speak more dun shy lay... haha!!
Den after which she came to sit next to me and mingle with the sam's family...
Geavin is very very cute and witty...
G: Hey...what is 10 X 10?
Yv: eh... plays with fingers... i dunno? tell me what izzit?
G: 100 la~!! * looks super hao lian but in a good way*
pew nudge yv's elbow and say : eh u act stupid ah
Yv: of cuz la...

Then i asked Geavin wad is his hobby?
G: OH... i like to jog...
G: i like to play bball...
Yv: uh huh
G: i like to buy toys
Yv: wad? wad u say?
G: i like to buy toys!!
Yv: muhahahhahahahahamuhahahhahaaha

hrr interesting la!! its like our term of I LIKE TO SHOP! but the money is taken from our parents...

and there is this weird convo that went on...
G: you know hor i play ultra man @##(@#@$(#@ silver @#%(@#_@ red @#(@$VLKNEJ@)O$@NWvarv@....
Yv: OH REALLY AH!!
Pew: You understand what he just said ah?
Yv: i only heard silver...
PEW was like erm chio-ing like shit!!

hrrhrr... so funny la.. then after which we ate ate ate talk talk
talk abt her security measures she did everytime she is china
hai worried for her... very unsafe u knoe.. but heng she knoes how to take care of herself (:
Grown up daddy's gal...
oh ya tokin abt her dad...
we were talking about star awards...
yv: HANOR!! my dad everytime like ghost come support me also nv say appear behide me i shock until...
pew points behind window.... eh there your papa!!
yv shock and looked back... gave the chey look and said: wa piang i tot really lay...

Oh ya... hmm wad happen next ah... got one part i know xin, jiamin and kite went toilet~!
so i nothing to do... so i show geavin the mouth trick that i always do la... den aud and yvonne saw it...
Yv: hey u got ever consider of going the industry as a comedian a not?
pew: ...
i was dumbfounded den i said: i compose songs one (:
Yv: wuuu....

but could you imagine wad izzit like if i did say yes??!! oh my tian... she could have recommend me to Jack neo or something MUAHAHA... =x

aiya many things happen and i guess i really had fun.... cuz after the meal we took pics and we walked yv back to her car as she drove xin, kite, aud and jean to some mrt...
and while walking the public's faces was like.... WA~~ yvonne!!... eh isn't that yvonne?
some are like eating their food... den their mouth open big big~! hrrhrr wad a fun sight...
(: den we were like some body guard guarding her as she open the way... (:

she scolded us when we gave gifts to her la... she shouted that next meeting it will be NOTHING!
but hor.. not fair!! she gave all of us chocolates lo... which after which we all gave her to write msg for us (: haha and she paid for the FOOD!! at seoul garden... OH MY TIAN!!
suppose to go on dutch la...
14 ppl... each 30bucks = 420!!!!!!!!!!!! AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
so scary the amount!! can buy on DS LITE!!!! AHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
OH MY TIAN~~~~~~~~~!!!!!

den as we approach the carpark i buay tahan i asked yv....
pew: yvonne why are you so NICE? Yv: huh?? gave that shock look...
den everyone laughed.... haha cuz its de qsn that i wanted to ask for so long
then in the end...!! i got NO ANSWER!!
she is so so nice la.. before she left in the car she told me that the song that i gave her hear is really nice and i should continue to jiayou... hee
i am smiling like this now...
-________________________________________-

ok la pics time!! grp photos i haven get yet but this is wad i got so far...
i know madness... (: but i am happy... my siblings aren't.. i am like getting a plastic cover to protect it...
It said: dear eunice haha! you thought i donno who you are but i do!
The very funny eunice!! yvonne lim!!
failed attempts of tou pai-ing her.... (: haha and finally got a CLEAR ONE! but my head got cut off! YV said: eunice ni hen SALA la ni....


okok i hope u had fun reading my blog...

Random Feel: Must you have a reason to be nice to someone?

Labels: gathering, LXP, wedding

♥ 3:29 AM

Alrite simple response that got me quite happy the last few months (:


Anyway... yep i dyed my hair today... i personally dun tink that there is any diff.
but my sis says it suits me (: so i will take her word(: thanks... she dyed it for me (: haha
I read yvonne's 30 days blog of her quiting smoking... Do check it out if u are free and is intending to quite smoking...
i read thru the whole thing today.. and wow its really not not easy...
And i am so so proud of her that she manage to quit! ppl its not her first attempt... its her third!
and she has been smoking for 5 years... SUPER HARD CAN~!
so now i can say to all my friends who SMOKE... please please QUIT! cause if Yvonne can do it so can u!!

Find ur reasons to quit... don't only quit for ur friends and family! quit for urself!!
your health!! ur future- family & child.[set a good example]
After finding that reason... constantly remind urself.
Oh ya... lessening the amount of stick u smoke doesnt equals to quit.
You jus smoke lesser... but overall u still SMOKE!
This is Eunice's simple shoutout~!!!! PLEASE...
thanks (: heehee
ohya... u save so much by not smoking too~!

Random feel: A temptation is always a temptation and will remain as a temptation unless you respond to it.

Labels: LXP, smoking

♥ 3:35 AM

Recently... i have been tinking that this SEM...
i have been living my days quite meaninglessly....
i got a part time job that got me so busy with... realize i am "loner" in poly now.
except in SA la... but nv regret joining orion which i made lots of nice ppl.
studies... wad abt studies... ok i am so so far behind~!
shall read notes tml! really~!!
family... hmm everyone is so busy...
God... hai~ stagnant~ i need a revival~

Ppl.... if u are free... go to Jeanette aw's blog! its meaningful plus... she blogs everyday~ (:
and glad that the blog doesn't have any tag board... so ppl can't hurt her with unsightly words...(:

okok... this coming sat is an eventful and busy day~! many places to go and stuff to settle.. oh no~! God bless me... (:

-Zanny's gathering to settle
-Yvonne's gathering to attend

(: broke broke broke too... please donate to pew's fund (: thanks for ur donation...
transfer $ to ..1111111111 hahaa (:

RANDOM FEEL: Too much of something Good is NO good.People need to live in a world of balance (:

Labels: random

♥ 3:55 AM

Dear blog... As you all know... i have been having this Christmas mood even before Christmas!!
And i guess it kinna died off... HAHA so MERRY CHRISTMAS~!
notice i use Christmas and not Xmas....
cuz Christmas... de Christ.... stands for CHRIST~!=== Jesus Christ!

As for Christmas eve... i practically slept the whole day off till my brain was fried!
i woke up at 10am... and went back to sleep at 12... den i woke up at 1.45 look at my hp and went back to sleep.... woke up at 2.45... looked at my hp den went back to sleep... woke up at 3.45... looked at my hp den went back to sleep... and 4.45 i finally ROSE FROM MY GRAVE BED! to watch baifenbai~! OH MAN~! i am so pig!!...

anw this year is different... i didn't prepare any gifts or cards... tml for church!
i am jus going to give wishes!! (: and SMILE of cuz!! haha
this year is different... presents didnt came across my mind. Not giving but receiving...
cousin xiao xuan gave me my first present... and for a sec i was asking myself what's the occasion??!!

haha... weird but yey true! Eunice for once didn't treat Christmas a day to receive gifts! (:
ever since i was a cute little gal all i want for Christmas is gifts and more gifts...
den i will tend to like compare the amt of gifts i had last year and this year... TSK TSK TSK~!
if it was lesser... i will go into emo state... and start to sing....
LAST CHRISTMAS I GAVE YOU MY HEART THE VERY NEXT DAY YOU GAVE IT AWAY~~

(: this christmas.... i am happy and satisfied with a simple MERRY CHRISTMAS~!
maybe accompanied with a simple hand shake or a hug!

Random Feel: A simple sincere wish is enough to make a person smile~! (: Merry Christmas~! Did it reached your hearts? :D

Labels: christmas

♥ 1:52 AM

Hi... i shall blog about this weird feeling!
As u all know i was once crazy over S.H.E, Hei Se Hui and OuXuan.
I heard a lot of bad stuff about Jeanette's attitude.
So I asked myself why do I still like her? Her attitude suck!!
I liked her cause i find her charismatic but her acting was slightly above average.
So I was tinking to myself... those reasons that cause me to like her is not really VALID. So i stopped noticing her or rather stop watching her shows. Took the side of believing her attitude is bad.
Cause of her bad points, I forgotten what her goods points.

I have been reading Jeanette's blog after the star awards. I guess she handling the blow quite well. Or maybe she is chen qiang-ing...
She blogged everyday and every post is a meaningful post. So i guessed she like the feeling of blogging her every thought~ A slight introvert,she is.
Yey so the weird feeling is... when i knew she didn't got into Top10!
i was actually laughing and gloating!!
How can I do that when me myself didn't experience her bad attitude but instead gloating over her loss? and believing wad other ppl's saying... so this weird feeling came!

HAHA but u know wad... it doesn't really matter. Cause i am just that someone on the streets that Jeanette doesn't know.
I liked her from her being at Chn U till...
Why i cant just stayed on to my beliefs...
Its not about her la... i am angry that i believe wad other ppl's saying...
The feeling of not being myself suck. Even now... i am still wanting to find reason to like her back... hrrhrr anw...

RANDOM FEEL:
Supporting someone doesn't requires that someone to be "hong"!!

Labels: Jeanette Ou, LXP

♥ 11:35 PM

alrite... today's day is spent mostly on doing my proj.
yeps i have 3 project, one is HTML stuff which i have already started on!
haha...

ok here are pics of the campus yummy hunt day.






alrite that very day i didn't style my hair... and i tink i look 3 yrs younger HAHA!
BHB... anw catch me on chn U tues 8pm 2 weeks later.... wahaha!NYP ep
actually i also dunno when its screening...
anw there is alot of weird moments, duno whether they got cut it anot. HOPEFULLY YES!
haha... dasmond interviewed me (:and felicia interviewed this gal who is siting across me... i was like phew yey i can eat no need interview... den wa something unexpected happen... so.. u wanna knoe wad izzit...? watch it la (: haha!

woosh... i am still contemplating what hp shld i get... but not as if i got the choice rite.. i am terribly broke!! (: wahhaha
thanks ah... conscience for dropping the phone!! hrr hrr

off i go to watch a hk drama series! by Charmaine sheh! she is lawyer in the show... gu zhuang...
oh ya! huang jin lu rox! but i went to check out the site and realise lin fei[felicia] wont end up with jin long[li nan xing] in the end... hai sad la~!

Labels: campus yummy hunt, felicia chin

♥ 3:14 AM

ok... it took me 2 sleeps to actually sleep off the heart ache of the loss of my hp.
now i am more stable to actually blog (:

ALUMNI NIGHT
everything went smoothly, well something didn't but overall it was good (:
the seniors took the lime light! haha i love the vampires play!
i always wanted to be a vampire! SO COOL~!
and Aisha did well for her song part~! so proud of her... even though there are some boo boos...

anw... the whole event ended with the passing down of positions!
AND WOW! i am so so happy! CONGRATS to Syidah as Assistant Head of drama and Anjana as Head of drama...
As u can see... they are the in charge of my grp during drama nite... HAHA i am HAPPY!
cause they really work well with each other~ like a dad and a mom...
well... who is dad and mom is for u to decide... hrrhrr
And... Assistant president of StageArts is Rabiah and President of StageArt is Farhana!! ahhhhhh!! so cool~!! hrrhrr cuz haha they all told Farhana that she will be head of TMT instead but NOT! wahaha... she was so shocked!

after it all... i cried abit cuz it was tears of joy! yey! i am happy for them!
and those ppl really deserve the role! not forgeting sara as head of log! i tink its a damn damn damn hard job la... really! Logistic is never easy~! SARA! YOU CAN DO IT!
and after the curtains are closed... everyone started to hug everyone~!
By then my tears dried up already... but the moment i saw Aisha... this thought struck me... she will be leaving!!! ahhhh... i cried la...! haiyo~~
so malu... i hugged her and cried...


well... at that point of time i didn't know that later on something dumb is going to happen that made me cry even more...

its a form of mixed feeling that i experience first time in my life.
I actually laugh and cry at the same time~! its amazing how this 2 extreme ends meet.
Causing me... to look stupid, berserk and pitiful at the same time!
HAHA... okok that was a fake laugh.

i am still angry with myself in a way that how can i be so dumb!
hai~
so overall... of ytd.
GAINS
-i gain experience on stage again!
-i realize i love Stageart and Aisha a lot!
-i come to realize that the different department are one big family! and without having one of them is like chopping off any part of the limbs of your body.
-there are ppl who care and really show that they care when i cried super super badly!
LOSS
-i lost my contacts [esp zn one!]
-i lost pic and videos on that day~! plus campus yummy hunt day~ cause i didn't upload them yet...
-i lost my hp...
but actually i can just round them up into ONE~! haha... so comparing the G and L!
hmm... ytd was not that bad after all.. (: hee thanks~!

honestly... i still feel weird cause my hp is not ard me (: heehee the above post is just comforting myself... HAHA

p.s Aisha's voice is still in my head "the more u try the less i buy~!"

Labels: alumni night, handphone, stage arts

♥ 4:47 PM

i feel damn dumb for dropping my hp into the toilet bowl while it is flushing...
DUN LUFF... honestly whoever luff~! u will die!...

♥ 12:31 AM

ok the previous post was so so lame... -.-
hrrhrr...
anw i guess i will be busy even though my hols is here!

today ah... last minute went to be food taster for campus yummy hunt.
so i guess i will be on tv again... next week or 2 weeks later.
(: i ate alot sia! SHIOK! prata at 11am, lo mee at 12pm and egg hotplate at 1.40pm
SHIOK! eat so much!

took pic and vid of felicia.. but i lazy HAHA... to upload.. anw she is nice (: hrr
happy!

i tot alot while i was tokin to sj when we walk home today.
not that i am not concentrating or wad la... but i guess i somehow cherish ppl ard me more! (:

♥ 12:58 AM

today~! for some reason... kanna influence or wad!
i feel like writing a will. wahaha

lets see.
ALL my S.H.E stuff will be be given to MARLENE.
My gameboy to my 2 cousin-Jonathan and Nathan.
Wide range markers to Elai.
my diary to Sarah Jane.
Clothes to nath and ruth.
Laptop to my esther sng :D
keely message and autographed to xueting.
December stars2 to xueting also... haha
CSS2 CD to don
my sketch book to deqi.
KTV VCDs+ VCDs... to xiao xuan jie jie.
Cap to kenneth
20 buck to kenneth cuz i owe him that. HAHA
blog account to Charline... that she will once a while blog in memorial of me (:
My blings [the handcuff and music note one] + composing book and demos to Zanny (:
Mp3 zen stone to grace cheong:D
drum sticks to han qin (:
Handphone to Madeleine as A spare... (:
The copyrights of Mesmerize my heart- janice chua (:
The copyrights of what a big mole- waiching faith (:
The copyrights of Jeans, you are perfect- jean (:
The copyrights of How much of your love, her regrets- cindy teh (:
The copyrights of shattered- Geraldine nariko (:
everything Purple to geri lim (:
Piano- yiwen (:

wahaha i jus realise i dun have much things either...
(: wahaha and those who didn't receive any... i am in ur memories (: i may increase the list when i hav more stuff...!! wahaha

aren't i sweet or wad!!

hrrhrr
bullshit... annoying blog post... noting better to do~! haha
4 more days to zanny return
1 more day to keely return
i am exploding!FASTER COME BACK! ROAR~!

Labels: kiwi, twig, will

♥ 12:27 AM

HAA to be honest i open this particular blog window for 2 times today~!
but couldn't think of any thing to blog...
FINALLY i got something i wanna say...

throughout my whole life! ok la... not whole life la.. maybe starting from pri sch
MOST of my childhood memories is in church...
and my CHURCH has always been next to SMSS!
from pri sch till now...
so in a way... most of my friends are from girl's school...
and suddenly for some reasons~! i wished i had went to a girl's school~!
i tink its so much FUN LA~!
like we are all crazy and stuff without bothering our image... cuz there is no guys ard!
hai~ i guess i will put my daughter to a girls school next time. (:

i knoe la like there is certain issues on lesbianism and stuff (:
trust the LORD...(: heehee

Shld have studied in SMSS HOR... but den again it will be like going to church... HAHA

ok confession of the day~!.... I HV NOT BEEN STUDYING!
Thurs - graphic design test!
its easy la.. but even so... I HAVE TO STUDY RITE... [yelo]

tsk tsk tsk... tml i shall STUDY! anw its interesting (:


random comment:
3 more day till kee is back, 5 more days till zn is back!
and i really miss them alot...! maybe more of zn cuz i spend the last few days with her having fun. yey! FASTER COME BACK ZN!! i wanna eat island creamery!!

ahhhhhhhhhhhh haha... i have been analyzing how ppl blog their blog!
some in point form.. some in para... some in random thoughts.. some in stories... some with photos.... videos.... (: wad so ever.... it still conveys their feelings HAHA and there are different ways to end ur blog entries...
with a BYE.. with a P.S... with a random fact... and one thing that i find hilarious!!
KZN ends off her ancient last time post... with a will of the day... jus happened to look by... haha so pessimistic!! haiyo~ but i find it quite cute...
now i know why she likes writing wills whenever she goes overseas...
hope she left me something...
haha maybe i can have my smiley badge back.. (: HEE

Labels: blog post, girls school, SJCP, SMSS, twig

♥ 3:20 AM

Currently listening to jazz... wa i am in a Christmas mood~!
i bought the DECEMBER STARS 2 CD le! and i got zn to help me write a msg (: she is very sweet in person u know... always thinking for others (: really SWEET

i went to support her for the bus event cause she scare no one there to support her.
And the event featured Mi Lu Bing~! so many of their fans came... wa making the bus very very squeezy! but cannot blame them ma... HAA
so anw i sui sui at the VERY back with the sound man... but HENG zn saw me (: she SMILED... can see she was really happy i came. (: hee

before...
after...
2hrs on the bus... squeezing~! somemore NIAO JI! major waterfall urgent ALERT!
overall i tink this event is interesting la... but not realistic...singing on the bus lay... unless u make a bigger kind la... tink need more planning! and while singing have to hold on the bar.
zn told me when she release her hand, it was full of sweat la...

heehee... and after the event we were skipping away la... HAA damn happy that its OVER!
cause ah... wa really major trapped on the bus that gan jue!
hrrhrr
me skipping away: YEY Its over!
zn skipped but suddenly stop: its uncool to run and skip
me: oh ya u got image to look after....
her Z bling given by junyang...
we went westmall walk walk... got subway WHICH SUCK! bt batok's franchise suck!
only my franchise RAWK... our service DAMN GOOD K~! hrrhrr
really... we asked for more cucumber and he gave a extra of ONE MORE PIECE!
they ran out of tomatoes... and their wrap paper is cut! so its like small space to wrap and stuff...
OH MY~~.... oh well... zi ye bing...

den we went to get the December star2 album...
den we walk walk talk talk... walk the talk... talk the walk... bla bla bla i am LAME!
HAHA... ok... anw later someone picked her up den i went home...
hai... she is leaving for new Zealand at 12am.. and we talked abt wad if she yi qu bu hui... and hai
i recorded a good bye vid...
zn: you know i write my will every time i go overseas...
me: huh u got wad will to write...
zn: have to give off my stuff mah.. have to tink whether they will like it or not whether the person will wear the shirt or not...
me: CAN YOUR MOUTH DON'T BE SO CHOY!!


den we start to have funeral talks... we kinna open with it...
we discussed how we want our funeral to be like... and stuff...
HER funeral:
-a live band
-cannot be sad
-a montage of her, from young till she... =x
-at her house, simple kind... not under void deck buddism kind.
Pew's funeral:
-sister yahui on piano playing yi yan wan nian
-a video asking guest to look under the chair for red thread [free peanuts at the counter]
-cannot wear black! must be green!
-have to smile at me when u look at me at the coffin... CANNOT CRY!

cuz we both tink that dying is not a bad thing!... its going to another special place (:

WOOSH... today is a fun day! and i hoped its not the last day spending with dearest zn... hai
BLESS HER LORD... bring her to and fro safely! kee too...

another issue that i am happy... cuz its like Christmas is coming! and ITS GREAT to see most of my friends overseas COMING BACK! wahahaha... pew is happy! (:

pewpew out!

Labels: christmas mood, funerals, spop, twig

♥ 8:25 PM

this is the time and moment when i got many things and gratitude to say...
AND its also the time when my inspiration tend to fly and go insane!
AHHHHHHHHH but i dun have my guitar to compose wad i am feeling NOW!
this honestly SUCK!!!!!!ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!
i wanna pluck strum and hum away... but i cant! and now all those ideas flew away HUMP!
i need my guitar back AND FIXED!

:(
anw hee i am gng to mdc later to find zn... handing her her minus 1 tao yan song.
i asked rell to help me get the minus 1 version cuz she needs it by 7.30am later...
and its like 3am plus... hee gng to meet her later... woosh! pew no need sleep liao (:
but wadever case... i love helping out la... (: just that argh! damn i got a lyric now in my head... (:

Labels: Guitar, mdc, twig

♥ 3:16 AM

woosh... it was a great experience and i didn't regret joining orion!
made lots of friends and EVEN BETTER MORE K BOX MATES! haha pew is happy!

anw... life is really like a drama.
the night when i left my guitar before i left the place.... i heard that my guitar was accidentally dropped... so i was like OK... as long its still in one piece.
So when i reached there... i wanted to tune my guitar. JUST TO FIND OUT that the knob of the tuning side is dented... and once i tried to turn to tune it... the whole knob came out GASP!!
ok la after that i cry cry cry la... and alot of ppl came to knew abt it and the organizers are like handling my guitar now...
its my brother's guitar and i am so so attached to it... cause i have been playing and composing lots of songs with it... hopefully it can be fixed. (: pray hard!

so i quickly gathered up my feelings! OH MAN! hai~ it was hard! i couldn't stop crying... :(

anw after all that i concentrated on my performance...
it was all well... till the mic went OUT OF BATT! [suay] and i didn't really panic la
i was wondering eh why cannot hear myself... so i sang louder and before i knew it the MC changed my mic... PLUS cuz my guitar was loud[i forgot to lower the volume]
i cant hear my minus ONE... which in turn CRASHED... hai... oh well~
Here is a video of that night... (: i treasure the moments on stage... (:
the only regret is that SJ wasnt there... :(



okok... now wondering whether i got win? the answer is NO~! hmm i tink cause some parts of my song i couldn't reach it... oh well its over! haha PHEW!
i was like so PHEW after i ended my song!! haha
ANW i was told by lina [one of the organizers] that the talent scout asked for my no. (: maybe there is still more that i can do with my talent HAA... i duno la...
i jus love composing~! AND OH MY!! i heard that yana and hanisah cried!! while listening to my song! GASP... so touched la... that u are touched!! i really did mesmerize their hearts!! oh well maybe only both of them... haha!

hee after which i went dwn to mdc... to see kee for the last time before she flys off to shanghai~! hai... i am worried for u seh... but u told us not to be worried! ok i will try my best not to.
Den waited for zn to come out... she took quite long ah den jim they all stayed to wait for her with me (: haha
i got so impatient cause they were like accompanying me ma so i felt bad.
so i said out loud : OK ZN I GIVE U 5 MORE MINS!
den i started to sing the stella huang song!.... "its all about honey 我耐心的等等等了有等"
AND SHE APPEARED INFRONT OF ME!! ahhh i was so shocked la... that i shouted which caused the reception aunty to cua diu and ZN was shocked by my shout and HAAHA
she kneed down... MUHAHAHA.... the scene is damn damn funny! really...
den haha i was like so so malu-ed! hai hai hai... paiseh ahhhhhh so paiseh!
(: i am happy cause even though ytd was a FULL of drama and tears day and i was so so disappointed that i didn't win... but zn never fails to put a smile on my face (: haha she is so funny really.
and when i told her abt J and the chalet stuff... i was pissed cause J like treat her with no respect...
and her reaction was : aiya i am used to it... i was called every animal that can be on this earth... chicken ah mouse ah...
she said it with much pride... HAIYO~! don't like that can! used to it is one thing... accepting retarded zoo comments is another!! U ARE NOT!! ok...

anw... pewpew is happy (: and i am going to eat fries TML! yey! shu tiao shu tiao!

ok more photos of orion!...

Labels: orion, twig

♥ 8:28 PM

Sat i went to catch RGS's play!
WAHAHAHAHAAHHA honestly... i nv had such a good laugh after so so long in my life!
this laughter that can only be found on church camps...
those that u will laugh and cry on the floor kind.
THUMBS UP! well done RGS...
there is a reason why i like comedy u know!!
thanks zn for the tix... even though like last min it was screwed up or something!

HAHA so funny~ from the time i step into RGS and saw zn! she was eating NON STOP!
first it was the taiwan street chicken... den interval... she was eating subway!
HRR funny seh... DA WEI WANG! wo fu le ni!
then after which we... val, Germaine and jess went crazy! keep taking photos!!
haha cam whore... ard the sch!
HAI... i really miss sch days LA......!!!!!!!
really running ard in the cohort! so carefree... hai! miss those days!
and i super LOVE my school compound la... cuz alot of bball court haha
i rmb everytime str8 after lesson or RECESS time... i will chiong dwn to play bball!

hai... gng sch later for prac... my voice is killing me! cuz i cant sing la!

Labels: orion, twig

♥ 10:40 AM

hmm alright! life have been fun?
hmm can say so la... but fun also no use... Exams are coming and OH NO
crash with my Orion.
i really hope i get something out of this orion experience.
Wad can i say... hmm i am already happy that i got into the finals.
out of 100 ppl... not a lot la but its my second composing competition... (:

today ah... its like normal sch den after which i handled my minus one CD
wa must really thank peilin for helping me do the demo (: thanks a lot!
it really enhance the sound of my song (:
den i went home and checked on hui xian cuz i suspect that its a fake on msn.
ya and its really is... told xt don and ben and all of them gave the same respond.
EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE... so funny rite

haha... so now i got my usual MSN crappers.
haha... as for the tix for the finals... i invited selected few. cuz i cant really think who to invite... i tried to invite SJ but she is so occupied with stuff bah.
Then somemore my class has this briefing thing for next sem. Crashes~!
hai... 7 tix but no one to go to...
confirm ppl is only Don and Cindy.. HUMPH hai i shall perform to ppl i dunno den.

so so busy that i cant meet up with kren and gang... suppose to have a gathering.
(: yelo.
I shall seek refuge in the Lord... (:

hai i dunno whether i should carry on this kind of life. hmm... but i am glad i meet a lot of nice peeps on the way... like xt, ben , jim, alan, evonne, wanching, yiluan ,april, apple!!!! and ZN!!! ahhhhhhhhhh!!
i love apple la!!! haha she so so so cool! haha ~~ ok off i go...

Labels: orion

♥ 1:58 AM

This is super super freaky! let me tell u wad happen today!
i went to mdc for campus yummy food taster interview.
den i meet kailin to eat at mdc canteen.
And we tok abt ZN... den i was telling them haiya... i miss ZN la... she MIA for 2 weeks liao... humph... i hope i can see her...

den den... 15 mins later...
kailin : eh... no no.... EH that gal look like ZN but not bah
i turn ard... and look!! wa its ZN!
me: KOH ZHENG NING!!
den she turn ard... haha its really HER!

wa i damn happy so i went up to her catch up with her a bit take pics...


i asked zn whether my hair ku ku anot... but no la she said... she said its cute =x
but i still tink its ku ku but i like it la.. very cool!

anw...
after zn left...
kailin: aiya... how i wish can see my jessica!!
me: den i hope u can see ur jessica
kailin: wa if u say den she really come out hor... i love u ah!!

kailin2: yalo yalo i wan to see nat Ho
30mins later....
Nat ho appeared... FOLLOWED BY jessica!
WA SO QIAO LA....

den hor after they saw them they went to take pic and stuff... den i hump am i take lucky?
den hor i say i wan see ling yi...
den after 15 mins LING YI CAME!!

ahhhhhhhhh!! so so qiao!!







anw... for ur info! keely wee is stil number 1! (:

Labels: lingyi, mdc, twig

♥ 12:25 AM

i am like a step further to the finals!
i manage to get peilin to help me do the demo! oh thank GOD!
its so nicely done la... pro pro!

so last night kee is having chalet and went escape theme park with some ppl... ahem!
anw... for ppl who misses her like me (: wahha she gng overseas soon i scare she yi qu bu hui... BEN LA... anyhow say...=x now i really scare...


video of her pai-ing xi nu ai le...
got one part she say she mei.. so BHB hor!
wahha... (:

Hey pew! Hello! takkaire....
(: wahhaa... ok pew is going off...
i scare that i will lose anyone ard me...
lastly... happy belated birthday jan!! wahhaah mini miss patrick gal!
AHHHH ZN MIA-ING AH not at this time!! :(

Labels: ben, keely

♥ 12:50 AM

finally caught it!! but the sound quality abit soft ah.. sorry guys!
zn and kee finally can watch it... just sent the mv to kee jus now yawn!
scared of finals...
woosh!

Labels: css2

♥ 12:42 PM

alrite i got into finals... of youngcomposer orion. (:
sorry that if i dun sound excited and happy.. well thanks to someone my mood is RUIN..
oh well... just to tell u all la..
and i hope zn and kee will come that day... but if they cant make it den nvm la.

nites... idiotic people that dun tink before they speak GET LOST

Labels: orion

♥ 2:44 AM

WOOSH... its been so long since i sang till so HAPPY~!
finally get a chance to sing a few songs with kiwi...
S.H.E songs somemore... even happier rite... wahha... lets see... i try to recall wad song i sang with her...
1. 新不了情
2. Yes I love you
3. 我们怎么了
4. 不能作你朋友
5. 痛快
6. 原点
7. 怎么办
8. 梁山伯已朱丽叶
ok i cant rmb liao...

gave her the shirt when she felt cold in the room... (: glad she like it (: yey!
the shirt is designed by me (: "i love it! i will wear to chalet"
(: pew productions SHIOOOOOK!


we so called celebrate her birthday... its like one week late la... so its belated (:
but still.. she appreciates...haha this time i was the one that brought in the cake~! wahaha.. i like that feeling... so warmth! with the candle's light shining on your face... as u walk in singing happy BIRTHDAY.. :X opps in this case its.. happy belated birthday... haha ok u get the picture already?

anw... had fun... got headache... had fun... but still got headache... (:

kiwi:eh wads wrong?
me:hai got headache~!
kiwi: den still go meet your friend... very smart hor...
me: ...

after singing till 7pm... we took photos video photos and more photos... wahaha!
den i met up with deqi and clarice which den i realise esther they all went home liao.. :( waste my traveling fare.. BUT...ok la at least i manage to tok to kiwi on the way to the mrt abt some stuff that has been bothering me...
anw... ITS FUN~! woot! i only have limited amount of photos...
oh i predicted tht the next time we are gng to gather again is after kiwi's A level.
so have to wait 1 yr later la... :(


i send my sis off to thailand this morning... i pray she will be back in one piece (: in one months time... hai... i do love her u knoe haha.. my sis lay~!
nites.. imean MORNING~!

Labels: k box, kiwi

♥ 2:08 AM

on my way home...


this little kitty sayang me when i was waiting for the lift... cute rite.. (:
so i gave it something to eat... the only thing i have at that point of time.
my subway-clam crowder!!

new blog skin... it looks different in firefox and IE... weird...
tml is de audition already... i guess i am not pressured to perform well... so i am quite relaxed now. (:
been composing... works nowadays are not very impressive but yeps... well enuff (:
wad else?
lookin forward to wed and sat... and OH YA~~ i lose my wallet... super sian feeling!
really... my IC ezlink card... and my mom's atm card inside... phew... suck! this feeling... LORD i pray real hard! to have it back (: ppl pray with me! den i give u sweet k.. haha

ok off i go... to practice mua guitar... rusty ah nowadays...

Labels: kitty, subway

♥ 2:56 PM

Went k box with kenneth, lee eng, sarah, huifen... the other day on KEELY's birthday one thing unexpected abt that day is that keely and gang was queing behide us to go sing k too... and to celebrate her birthday~!
how lucky can i be (: VERY!

so i manage to see the process of her getting smash by the cake la.. (: wahaha... and news spread like wild fire... and now all css contacts knoe keely got smash by cake.. (:
anw... yey... today was fun went to eat dinner with fad, syakyra, iqah and ilhum yum yum food...
here are photos and videos...

Labels: kbox, keely, stage arts

♥ 11:46 PM

Labels: jim, kiwi

♥ 1:19 AM

alrite i can say... that finally! WOOSH most things are better now...
all those misunderstandings are cleared... and my poor head is aching last night ah...
i guess the gift we have as human being is the mouth... we can communicate using it...
but there are times we do otherwise la.
anw... its stupid when u dun communicate... u will nv knoe whether its a misunderstanding. rite?
wahaha... anw enuff said.

(: i am glad i have been tokin to that someone and knowing that person better...
cuz its always good to hear 2 sides of the story rite... (: haha
i am joining orion young composer and duet! woosh.. wish me luck! anw haa
i am really proud of SA drama... happy belated birthday rabia~! i love u!

Labels: drama, rabia

♥ 11:28 PM

(: one of my favorite songs... lyrics by cindy teh (:thanks ah
have been hearin good comments abt my songs... i am HAPPY! haha

ok let me knoe whether u like it k... tag on my board~! its so bored...

anw... My family and i went to eat crab jus now... yum yum~! but the soup was full of msg.. couldnt take it... salty man.. so i only drank half a bowl of it...
didnt expect that after that i became abit HIGH... wahaha dizzy and abit dopey..
couldnt walk properly... like drunk like that wahahaha...

haa my fav drama show WO LAI YE by fann wong is showing now on tv! so happy... nice to watch ok.. very funny haha (: i like DRAMAS~!

Labels: composing feelings, fann wong, mdc drama

♥ 1:03 AM

wad is this..~! 5am and still awake
i have to work later at 5pm to 11pm hump~!
i had a nap at 6pm but end up waking at 10pm~! hello... it suppose to be a nap...
anw the happy thing is i went online and saw twig online... so i tok to her and stuff (:
found out from her that she cut her hair and she saw Eugene before... Eugene u happy anot~~ haa...

i have been writing stuff on my brand new notebook~! going line by line... penning my thoughts dwn... word by word... sentence by sentence... and slowly i feel better (: thanks sara for the advice... writing does helps (: hrr

ok... another thing i wanna pen my thoughts out... i feel abit guilty now as i see both of them... i didnt know he hated me. and yelo what can i do... i hate him now also... i just cant stand ppl who lie. like hello can u be honest... its like u cant blame ppl for not trusting u when u are honest cuz u are always lying...
trust is something u have to gain from ppl...

and i been thru alot... i guess... not as if i am that old. hrrhrr...
YO YO~! lana has a cool part time job! she have to dress up as claire! and give flyers~ so cool rite.. as in not the flyers part.... but CLAIRE is my fav character in HEROES~! other den peter... season 2 is not bad.. (: nice more exciting and scary ah... haa

OH~! i am stress cuz of orion [singing comp] amin and me hope we can pass audition.
still findin a song that we can work with... :( its hard...

Labels: orion, twig

♥ 5:49 AM

alrite... all of that is a act... anw~!
i worked till 11pm last nite.. yawn legs aching but no choice... wed & fri also!!
my manager put for me ah cuz u forgot to sms her my schedule...oh well~
sch later at 1 and haa end at 3... what is this! go sch for 2 hrs... den later i dunno wad to do liao! argh... i shall go home at lepak then... watch heroes

oh tokin abt heroes! wahaha... lana has a job!! her job is to stand in the middle of orchard and dress as CLAIRE from heroes... and tada.... 1hr 50bucks~! cool eh
not abt the money but EH CLAIRE is one of my fav heroes... she and peter!
I LOVE HER AND PETTER LA... PETER DARN CUTE! *faints*
i wonder how today will turn out to. ????

ppl i duno abt u all.. but do u tink i shld stop loading videos? haa
cuz some ppl cant load my blog ah... this big i tink haa.. oh well~~

Labels: heroes, stage arts, subway

♥ 11:58 AM

Labels: SJCP

♥ 1:40 AM

woosh its sure an eventful night and everything happen real quickly!
at the snap of a fingers
anw... less words more photos this time... enjoy!
us in character... i suppose to be serious but i dunno why i dun look like... sanwan a playboy, syakira some bitch, germaine innocent nice gal

While i am doing my hair... look its syakira at the side! haha

some say i look like hitler some say GMD... oh well.. this is UNCLE BEN!

Howa as kirstin~ look at that birthmark look like real rite... hahaakaye as modern fairy God mother!

eccentric earth... super cute can.. AISHA RAWK~! my head of drama~!

finally after dramanight! wooooooooosh... look at our faces! so happy! hrr esp fudlul...

videos... yeps i am that bored! wanted to occupy my time or else i will be nervous...


this scene is by syakira and yana... lookin for the witch to cast a spell on sophia de nice innocent gal acted by germaine!
my fav scene of their script... cuz i find yana's hight pitch voice funny! and the chemistry was there!! haha... syakira did so so well too... wahhaa nice and funny scene...

♥ 1:56 PM

yeps so i must record wadever fun thingy now~!
today 3 of our grp did a run thru and some had NGs that made me luff till i roll on the floor.~~ haa

Kenny's gay action
Syakira's bang into the wall when she walks out
Yana's high pitch voice
and lots more...
fun moments man... and we do slack too~! talk crap sing dance scold play haha really DANCE!
dun believe... take a look at this videos...

that one is taken on tues... syakira is like so fierce and germaine is like so so cute haha and act innocent! such a nice skirt become like that HAA
this one is taken today!

i guess i may miss those fun times we had on our way home.
the "HUH kahtib only ah" phrase SOMEONE will say each time.
haa oh well eh this is not a blog entry abt me graduating hor~~! jus wanna show u slack videos of us... at STAGEARTS!! its became part of my life (:

Syidah's face is like so so funny la~!

so dun blame me for videoing stuff dwn.. i just like to keep such moments down...(:
we can do it team SOPHIA~! WOOSH... lets make our audience cry! on fri~! wahahahaha.... siao~!

Labels: stage arts

♥ 11:41 PM

hoi hoi~! i am like so into jap and korean music now.. alrite i only hear one singer la.. that is YOUNHA~! wheeeeeeee...
changed my wallpaper again... currently...
anw... here is another video... this time de song is titled... 从三到零, from three to zero.



3 more days to stagearts drama night. for the first time i feel like doing my very best. even if my role is a small one (: i am proud of myself.
i was lost. but i guess i will learn so much much more if i manage to find my way again.

another issue... cant help to think about it ah... but "they" are always infront of me and i cant help feeling that way. oh well... there is nothing i can do.
i lose something i gain something... but why do i feel so so terrible. SIGH~~
esther!! help me... la...

Labels: composing feelings, drama night

♥ 1:32 PM

okok... i totally love her voice and music... her style damn nice CAN~!
and i heard her rendition of if i ain't got u~! super touching... her piano damn power too!
so i am here to share u GOOD MUSIC...


(: hope u enjoy it..~! anw... i recorded with my camera the song "the love of my life"
stay tuned to see more of videos... since i got a new cam that records quite well~!



so long ppl... off to rehearse for drama nite
come dwn and support me k (: hee

Labels: composing feelings, dramanight, younha

♥ 4:22 PM

so after school... and after stage arts... [i really suck in acting, i really hope that i can improve~! its like such a small role and i cant get it right... argh!]

ok i side line a bit was reminder abt it...
LXP got nominated for BEST ACTRESS~! for star awards!! so happy la...


AFTER stagearts...
I met up with Sj... ohmy its like ages since i saw her~!
and we head down to somerset mrt to meet CHAR and JU~!
SJ and CHAR bought me a pair of havianas!! but its so ex la... :( i feel bad...
After that we filled our stomach with HK cafe at cine... Wang something...


and they sang me a one word birthday song~! and bought my fav orea cheesecake~!

and so on my way home with SJ... she slept again~ AS USUAL
but its funny... i didnt wake her up even though she is in this situ! i jus erm chio...


haha... ok i am mean... but i can be sweet too k~! ANW after the outin i really missed them alot.. so i made a wallpaper

check it out! slackers who wants it.. please tag!! and tell me wad color u wan it to be... mine is green la of cuz! bye peeps...

Labels: birthday, slackers

♥ 8:50 AM